What tomorrow brought
Well Tomorrow brought a bit of fun, for the time I was with her and the hang over as usual from my favorite drug called love to Her. The evening went great we both joked about our break up, she was trying to fish out if I am dating with anyone and was trying to let me know that is hard for her to get over me. I also figured she started dating with the guy she always told me about, but I am not sure might be just my jealous mind.
She didn’t invite me to her home after, which was sad of course, but it was needed as well. I would have no guts to say if she did invite me and who knows where would we be after. I think she felt sad as well. as didn’t respond to my txt for awhile probably just talking to her friend and telling her everything about the date. She wrote to me that is happy we are both happy and still support each other. I didn’t respond, I don’t where fuck is that coming from by happy is a big word and I am not happy yet.
I realized with her gone I am missing the excitement, no matter how tough the relationship got I was exited to be with her, to have sex with her. No when she is gone, nothing excites me not my work, not going out, not even having sex with someone else. That’s the main reason I been all over the place from trying to find sexy buddy to a future wife – I am trying to fill a void. That is hard to fill!
The toxic thoughts of her with someone else, also don’t create for a good mood. Need let go of them!
